Unbearable Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Cynthia Vance
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